I am NOT perfect!

How many people out there do you know who are totally perfect? And do you believe in something called as ‘perfect’?!

For me there is nothing which is perfect in this world.No perfect person, perfect relationship, perfect soulmate ,Perfect family,Perfect face,perfect home…..Whatever people address to be PERFECT is near satisfying for that person & same goes for all ‘perfectionists’.. I am never ashamed to accept to anyone or anywhere that I am NOT perfect.Neither am I proud of my shortcomings,but I don’t believe in concealing them because that is one kind of hippocracy..otherwise don’t you think we will be living life of someone else!i do..

If I am to define myself,I will say I am a mediocre..and if I try to elaborate that for you,it goes like this…

For my parents- I care,I love,I cry,I fight,I rebel,I seldom clean my room or house,I spend more than what I am suppose to,I demand affection and attention,I disobey,I talk more and listen less,I dont give ear to their opinions,I don’t spend time with them,I lie!!

For my sister-I love,I fight,I borrow all her stuff,I make her spend for me,I make her recommend to parents,I am a crapster,I share,I care,I seldom call her over phone while she s away,still I miss her,I sacrifice,I complains,I support..

For my BF-I love,I care,I support,I advice,I irritate,I make him pull out his hair,I cry to get things done my way,I complain,I make him spend money for me,I fight,I act stupid,I argue,I ignore,I demands,I debate unfairly,I boss,I pout,I blabber about things he is least interested in,I keep asking opinions!

For my friends-I love,I care,I help,I sacrifice,I misunderstand,I bitch,I gossip,I hang wang,I play pranks,I shop,I discuss,I irritate,I act stupid,I comment,I forget,I forgive,I confuse,I complain,I bore,I force things,I miss..

For rest of world-I am arrogant,I am bossy,I am demanding,I am proud blah blah blah..But I dont care about any of those!!!

Still I don’t bother to correct all these dents within me,because they make me ‘ME’..a perfectly IMPERFECT creature…

Meng xiang

10:43 am,16/07/09..as I had to literally ‘kill time’ somehow on this 15th day of 2 month long study holidays,I retiered back into my cozy recliner,booted my pc and there runs my favourite series,FRIENDS..it was season 4,episode 12..with its title track playing..
“I ll b there for you,when rain starts to fall..
I ll b there for you like I have been there before…
I ll b there for you,coz you are there for me too…”
Wait a minute…how come I never noticed this before!these are the same lines,which I read some 8 years back,behind a small piece of art work,rather a wonderful piece of art work…my mind pounced,then raced back to my teens,8 years back..
…Meng xiang.. means a DREAM..& it was all about one such dream..a small one I carried somewhere deep inside in me..which I nurtured well with all my imaginations..after pampering for 2 years,i saw it slowly realizing..it was about a true friend,who understood me more than me..and ‘B’ gave that dream colour and life,who is my best friend for a life time..(yaaa,I know,i know all these sounds cheesy!!but there isn’t a better way to pen down my feelings at this moment,so please bare with me )
B came into my life without me noticing it.From where that relationship started,how it grew,how deep it was..all those where few irrelevant questions between us.Because at end of day all we knew was the other person will always be there for one,no matter what.And it was a pure genuine friendship.It started when we both were teenagers..and had all that freshness,innocence,purity&dedication a young mind will offer for a treasured relationship like that.And its been long 8 years!!Both of us went through ups and downs of life,twists and turns of life.From teens to youth we grew with each other.Lot of things changed,infact we changed.still there is something that is consistent,that is our friendship,as fresh as it was 8 years back..
Today this title track reminded me of a beautiful drawing B made for me once,in a small piece of rough paper and with few words written behind.it was so touching.and a few lines behind that was those of The Rembrandts..which I never noticed!!As soon as my mind came back after this quick travel to past, I rushed to my room,searched out my little treasure chest where I kept all my precious gifts,diaries,cards,letters & all other crap since small!i searched through the diaries and there it was..with a little yellow tan time imposed on..that cute little handmade card,with a winking smiley on it..it felt as its creator was wiking at me..so I smiled & winked back..because B,I could see you in it..and my heart sang…
“ So no one told you life was going to be this way.
Your job's a joke, you're broke, you're love life's DOA.
It's like you're always stuck in second gear,
Well, it hasn't been your day, your week, your month,or even your year.

But, I'll be there for you, when the rain starts to pour.
I'll be there for you, like I've been there before.
I'll be there for you, cause you're there for me too…………"

My cuppa coffee

Until this moment I never realized that I am so much fascinated by the flavor mocha aka coffee..this sudden realization came along with a steaming cup of hot plain coffee I just brewed myself.And the inspiration for me to have it was a famous soap opera star,watching him have a cappuchino!!i know it is weird but I always use to get hunger cramps whenever I see someone devouring something palatable.This peculiar character of mine dates back to my childhood as my mother always complains or rather mention this whenever I ask her to cook ‘something’ tasty for me!so for readers to take note on..M A FOODIE..so don’t be amused to see a lot of articles regarding or relating to FOOD in this blog of mine!

Returing back to my topic for time being…coffee has always been mans favourite beverage,ever since Ethiopians discovered this wonder bean.The energizing effect and the flattering flavour of these small black cherries may be the reason behind their evergreen success.There will be less than 10% of world population who doesn’t begin their day with a steaming cup of coffee.Me,who is an average human being having a normal life as majority of people out there,LOVE to start my day with ‘bed coffee’ as I call it.It is usually a cup of black coffee,preferably sweetened with a chunk of jaggery(u must be wondering whether that tastes good,but belive me,it is awesome and also gives you your daily dose of iron).But it is stated in many diet books that these are meant to do more bad to you than good.And as an attempt of my ‘Strict’ diet regimen I tried to skip it for a couple of weeks.But for my dismal the smell of coffee is so unresistable,I summoned to the tiny feet of them every morning afterwards,tearing away the diet chart I prepared myself without any shame :)

I belive grooming the coffee is an art as it comes in umpteen number of flavours,sizes,beans,powders,packs blah blah..Giving your coffee the desired flavor requires little bit of skill,otherwise it ends up having an unpleasant ‘cooked’ flavor or bitterness,as I am quoting it from my own experice!Adding milk,sugar,crème, sweetners,cocoa all giving you different varients of them and all those are named alluringly by various marketing experts!Espressos,plain coffes,cappuccinos, mochoccinos ,mochas,café latte,cold coffee and what not!Adding on with various coffee delights as cakes,icecreames,shakes,frostings..yummy..my belly just started growling  ;)

Can anyone ever deny that COFFEE is a synonym for MONEY.Most of third world countries depend on coffee for their major income,it being a well tradable commodity.More to mention all the national and international fair coffee chains mushrooming up.. Starbucks coffee,Cafe coffee day,barista,coffee beans..all of them are the best hangout places these days..i am definitely fascinated by them,being a coffee lover and a youngster loving to spend time with pals..common..what can be more fun than gossiping with a cup of coffee!

Still I am not saying coffee does no harm for human body,offcourse it does!!But I prefer to be blind folded to those facts!For me the satisfaction a cup of coffee brings you momentarily is worth forgetting the FACTs related to it..

As once quoted by a French statesman,Talleyrand,Coffee is …

“ Black as devil,hot as hell,pure as an angel,sweet as love”

.. I would also like to refer my hot cuppa coffee same ;)